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It stares at me with evil eyes.


I avoid it at best I can; put it off, decide I’m too busy now, but I know I can’t avoid it. (more…)


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[Forgive me for no posts for a week. I had a busy week with laughing children, “summer school” with a friend and volunteering.]

Have you ever gotten in the habit of praying? I haven’t; especially this last week. I’ll do it later. I’ll do it before bed. Recently, thought, I’ve been reading about prayer.

So many have said praying more has brought them closer to God. It helps them get through the craziness as well as calm moments where you need to give Him thanks.

Problem: As a high school girl, my life is crazy. (more…)

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You know what drives me crazy? unanswered questions. If they hang unanswered long enough, I start not even caring what the answer is. I just want the puzzle to be complete. The story to be finished.

I Want the Answers. (more…)

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You that commandment God made? “Honor your Mother and Father.”

Yah….I need to work on that one.

Not only is it in the Old Testament, It’s rephrase in the New:

“Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right. “Honor your father and mother” (this is the first commandment with a promise), “that it may go well with you and that you may live long in the land.” -Ephesians 6:1-3

It’s pretty clear this needs to be followed. How do we honor/respect our parents? (more…)

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Hat’s weren’t the only thing flying up Friday. As I looked at my sister it hit me. Two more years and that will be me. Now this sounds selfish, considering it’s my sisters graduation. The last thing I should be doing is thinking of myself. I make the excuse of course that she’s not moving away. (she’s staying in our house for the next two years, then she’s transferring to the collage of her choice.)
Anyway, it scares me. I have almost no idea what I’m going to do. My sister knows EXACTLY what she’s going to do after college, (just not how she’s going to do it). I only a vague idea.

I want to be a writer.

The most secure job in the world, right? (LOL) I don’t even know what kind of writer. I know the verse: “Trust is the Lord with all your heart…” but I have problems with teetering. You see….

I’m a pessimistic optimist.

I think I like the way Alice Herz Sommer worded it:

“I look where it is good. I know about the bad, but I look at the good things.”

it ‘s still HARD. I know it comes more easily to me than some of my friends, but it’s still hard.
Saturday night I met a former writing teacher, who writes professionally, at my sister’s graduation. As this school year was starting, she had graciously offered to look over a novel I wrote. 130 pages; and yes she’s a teacher. Needless to say, I told her she could take her sweet time on it. She told me she had it done and we needed to find time to meet.
I nodded and smiled as if I look forward to it, but a little voice inside me dreads the encounter. This isn’t because I’m afraid she’ll criticize my work. I know she’ll criticize my work. I’m scared that my uncontrollable/annoying/sensitive side will burst into tears during the discussion. If it was up to me Lord, I wouldn’t such a sensitive spirit, but I know He has His reasons….might not be what I would choose.

To be frank, life is Scary.

I’m no worry wart, (okay well most of the time) but I sometimes close my eye and think, my oh my. Really, does God expect to do it on my own? Then I laugh. nope.

I expect to do it on my own.

In truth, God has His hand on the future and the present. Looking to the future too much will bring worry. God wants us to look to the present. After all it is the only thing we can be used in. By the time tomorrow is here, it will no longer be tomorrow, but the present. God has been teaching this a lot lately:
“Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life? …. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”
~Matt 6:27,34

God has other plans

“‘For I know the plans I have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.'” ~Jeremiah 29:11

Growing up in a Christian home, this verse has become another ‘happily ever after verse’. I convince myself that I believe it because I hear it. Believe is more than listening. Believing is listening hard then acting on words despite what anyone else says.
I know God has plans for me. He has plans for everyone. The possibilities are endless, but only one thing is necessary

I chose it.

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I Give Up

I feel I could fly….

Freedom. There’s no other word for it. While my public school friends have more weeks of school, I’m free (almost. Math :P).
Today was a day of testing; The nervous pencils scribbling; Glancing at notes. Suddenly you become no more than facts.

  • The eighteenth amendment gives women the right to vote.
  • Democritus developed the atom theory, originally thinking even our souls were made of atoms. (more…)

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The Storm

The rain of yesterday…

The sun of today…

The tasks of today, piled on my “desk”.

It’s funny how fast things pile up.

Biology reading,

philosophy projects,

math lessons (Ugh, the math lessons) all begging to be done. In all the lists of yesterday, I missed my quiet time.

On “Good Friday”, of all days.

Do I spend so much time getting everything ready for the day He rises that we forget what is necessary? If I am tempted and put my precious time with him down even one spot on my list, what have I to help me with the first task? If I am not focused on Jesus what have I to focus on?

The wind and the waves?

                Is it not my human nature that if I do not focus on him, I focus on the dragging, nagging and gray rain?  I have often thought of myself as a pessimistic optimist. There is no such thing as a pure optimist. Even if I do not speak my fears, my pain, my anger and my sins out loud, they are still there…

And He stilled died for them.

                Do yourself a favor…

Find a quiet place (even if it’s the car outside) open you bible, (to anywhere) and read.

My I suggest Luke 10 or Matthew 14?

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled” ~Matthew 5:6

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